Sunday, May 21, 2006

I avoid..

.. mirrors.


I hate looking at a mirror and seeing that I look tired and messy following a long and tedious year.

After having to postpone my return, I had some time. To relax. God, you wouldn't believe how hard it is to just fucking relax.

A friend and I decide to go see Mission Impossible III. Just when Ethan got captured by his agency, I decided I'd visit the ladies room to freshen up.

So there I was at this deserted, borderline garishly lit restroom with perhaps no less than 14 mirrors-- quite ridiculous. I adjusted my belt and on an impulse took a closer look.

How scary, I thought.

I look old.

Not bad old. But not teenager young.

Features were subtly different. How unfamiliar.. I thought.

What an odd place to find out... I smiled and thought of how peculiar it is to have grown old away from one's self.

.. and to have all my momentous epiphanies materialize in restrooms.

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4 Comments:

You are 20 years old. Stop it, stop it, stop it.

You sound like me.

Now practice loud and clear..

" I AM NOT OLD, I AM YOUNG AND FULL OF LIFE, ENERGY AND EXCITEMENT."

If we don't believe it.. no one else will either... and since perception is reality- then you really will be old/er.

By  confused arab chick, at 21 May, 2006 17:58  

*hits you on the head*

Stop talking like that! It scares me!

But I know what you mean... I avoid mirrors altogether. Hmm can't blame Dracula for banning them from his castle :D

By  Sedna, at 22 May, 2006 13:32  

Erm...why is it that we share the same age, yet my reflection doesn't seem that old in the mirror?!

You're crepping me out...we're only 20 after all! :|

By  Anonymous, at 22 May, 2006 15:26  

CAC & Sedna:
Hey it's like you (CAC) said-- all downhill from 20 heh. I've always been "3ajjaza".. never young and every birthday since I turned 16 I've felt old.

It's not a bad thing. Bil 3aks. It was just surprising to look at a mirror and see that I don't look 14 anymore. Growing old is never a bad thing.. it's just that I feel like I've been so involved with life's trifles that I missed it.


Mochy:
I'm used to myself looking like a little girl. There's just a time in life when your features sharpen in all the right places and you think.. whoa.. I'm not a kid anymore.

20 or 40 .. One's only as old or as young as they are inside.. and I'm convinced I'm an old soul :)

By  Trevelyana, at 22 May, 2006 22:26  

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